This is the last day of the first year since Jackie’s death and I am amazed how my life has…
Helpless or Hopeless? Apart from death, one of the worst pains to endure is seeing my children hurt, without any…
Schrödinger’s Grief When death arrives, it does not hesitate. It emerges eager to take the ones we love, leaving only…
A Smile of Reassurance I’ve admired the blue Texas sky since I was a little girl. The most delightful and…
I never was afraid of grief or loss. After a long career in the military I had no illusions about…
A Familiar Place, an Unfamiliar State of Mind One year ago today, I woke up in Aaron’s childhood home. October…
I remember waking Aaron up on August 5th with annoying words, gentle kisses, and not so gentle prods from my…
While caring for my wife during the last 4 years of her life (she suffered from Primary Progressive Aphasia) I…
I have always had an abnormal sleep schedule. This time last year, the infinite annoyances from my pregnancy hindered sleeping.…
I found myself singing this morning. That wasn’t unusual in itself; years ago I had the unconscious habit, without obvious…
I am two people. Within days after May 8th of this year when my wife died, I began thinking of…
I don’t think I could be a columnist, putting out a column every day, I just don’t have that tenacity.…
I have come into a new phase in my life, my attitude has been altered and I have very little…
We are clearly in the last days. She sleeps 95% of the time and when she does open her eyes,…
The Greek philosopher, Socrates, is held to be the originator of the statement that ‘the unexamined life is not worth…
Satchel Paige, the famous pitcher, said, ‘Don’t look back, something might be gaining on you.’ As a caregiver I try…
It is interesting to me that I experience emotions in a sort of physical or physiologic manner. The way my…
It is ironic that, as my wife gets worse, as her disease progresses, my life becomes less time-stressed. This ‘new…
If you have ever been on a long plane ride, say more than 12 hours, inevitably you have prepared by…
As my wife slept in her new bedroom, this week I began going through the almost four decades of paper…